Things are starting to get bad again , we don’t have money. Its locked up, and i can tell my mom is having a hard time coping .. if i were to believe in god, id pray for my family to get through this rough patch in our lives. I’m taking it pretty hard beyond myself, i feel so useless and i want to do something to help .. but there isn't anything i can do to help.
Jeremy Chard <3 He’s a really sweet guy, and i have spent the last 2 weeks with him. He makes me feel really special, and i can be a complete idiot around him without any judgement. I’m holding off on all the deep emotions with him though, i wouldn’t know how he would feel about it, sometimes i do get scared of him though.. Just cause it seems in a split second that he may just disappear and not come back, i don’t know where this feeling may be coming from.. but its there. I'm just not used to it yet. I feel really comfortable with him, usually i don’t show anyone anything of myself, but even with my body i am just about comfortable with him, yes i know there is nothing wrong with my body.. but i have had a lot of comments about it in the past so i haven’t been able to let people that far, and he has the same trust issue i do. And its nice to have that kind of common thing, so we don’t push each other passed that comfort zone just yet .
Tiana McMillan. ( In Jeremy’s bathroom )
