Today wasn’t that bad of a day actually, i had quite a bit of fun in socials, well it went by quickly. Than i walked to 711 with Jacy, and got lunch . But it was so cold ! It even snowed today ! ): It supposed to be spring, but no it decides it wants to snow. But than all of a sudden it was hot during the afternoon.. so weird ! I hope it sticks to being 17 degrees this weekend , that would be nice !
I gave Jeremy the Easter present i bought for him, i really hope he does like it. He said he really likes the baby blue teddy bear, ( : Its really cute , he named it Ducky. Whatta fruit cake , eh ?
I think tomorrow is Jeremy’s Easter dinner thing , I’m hoping i can go, i going to convince my mom to go to a movie with Randy so that i have more time to spend with Jeremy tomorrow, that is if he still wants to hang out with me, i really hope I’m not annoying him. I can tend to be annoying sometimes, i tend to annoy myself as well. loll, I’m still debating on seeing my dad this weekend, but I’m sure I’m not going to. I don’t need that kind of hurt and stress right now, my dad always finds a way to hurt me.. So i don’t want to have to deal with that again. He can see my brothers like he wants to anyways, he never had time for me and he never will.
My mom says that once i move out or get to the age where she doesn’t want me at home anymore she is going to move up north, the only thing that is stopping her from going is me, because i told her I'm not moving there just because i have all my schooling and career plans here, i can’t just pack up and leave and lose this opportunity. That would be just to insane, and i wouldn’t want to leave the family and friends i have here, not that i actually have to many friends here… I've lost contact with most of them, and well some of them are still pissed at me. Even thought the reasons are not that good. And on top of that, i don’t think I'd want to just pack up and leave Jeremy, that’s out of the question, i can already see a future here.
I’m going to start saving my money, yes i know .. i always say I’m going to do that.. But i always end up treating my friends or the guys that I’m dating at the time, its kind of an addiction for me.. Honestly i have spent more money on guys I’ve been with than any other person other than myself. I hope Jeremy doesn’t realize that, ha ha, because i really do like making people happy, and i find it difficult to find ways of making people happy, because i must be odd that way because i can never tell if something i do makes someone happy, but whenever i buy someone things they always seem so much more happier, i think that is why i spend money on other people. ITS AN ADDICTION … wow, now that i type all this out. i realize that it is.
Buuuut back to the point, i need to save my money. I’m getting a lot of money coming up here and I’ll probably spend some of it on Jeremy’s birthday present as well, but than I’ll save some of the money that i receive. Cause i want to buy something big ! Like money towards a car, or maybe to help pay towards my schooling, if i do get this apprenticeship.
Quite an older picture, but oh well . I don’t feel like taking a picture right now .. Come to think of it, i need new pictures. I might do that tomorrow (:
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