FUUUUUUUUUCCKKK!
I got Isaiahs SHIT on my hand today, god dammit. Grossest thing EVER. lol It was the worst and most tramatic thing that has ever happened it me. Annnd also, when i went out for a smoke and came back in LILY got into the baby cream and had it all over her legs, face, dress, and hands... that was a gong show.
Now she is in time-out, isaiah is in the jolly jumper & im eating a popsicle! :)
OH! i got lots of goodies from the bakery tooooo :)
today has been quite eventful. & im super happy cause im with my man.
Thursday, May 31, 2012
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
May. 29th. 2012
Tuesday & I'm at home, had a denstist appointment today, my mouth is still in quite a bit of pain.. since i have an infection & CRIPT GLANS.. kinda sounds cool.. but its not. Had a nice nap with Joe today, he's soooo cute when he sleeps :P
I wrote on him today, while he was sleeping, its funny cause i asked him if I could do it, and he agreed and he didn't even know it.. i love how he talks in sleep! Telling me i'm on his glasses, even though he doesn't have glasses... even though he clearly stated that he needs them to read.. when he doesn't necessarily read right now, and he has perfect vision... hes such a cutie.
I won't beable to see Joe for a couple of days, so i'm going to try to do ALL i can to keep myself busy for the time being, i got so addicted to hanging out with him that it feels so weird that I won't see him in the morning or after school. god dammit, i love that kid.
Well nothing much else to say at the moment, im probably going to go watch a movie or something.. ALLL BBBYYY MYYSEEEELLLFFFF! :(
I wrote on him today, while he was sleeping, its funny cause i asked him if I could do it, and he agreed and he didn't even know it.. i love how he talks in sleep! Telling me i'm on his glasses, even though he doesn't have glasses... even though he clearly stated that he needs them to read.. when he doesn't necessarily read right now, and he has perfect vision... hes such a cutie.
I won't beable to see Joe for a couple of days, so i'm going to try to do ALL i can to keep myself busy for the time being, i got so addicted to hanging out with him that it feels so weird that I won't see him in the morning or after school. god dammit, i love that kid.
Well nothing much else to say at the moment, im probably going to go watch a movie or something.. ALLL BBBYYY MYYSEEEELLLFFFF! :(
Sunday, May 27, 2012
May. 27th . 2012
Sunday, School tomorrow :( Feels like this weekend went by way to fast for my likings. Oh well, another week at COSMO shouldn't be all that bad, other than the fact that ALL I want to do is lay in the sun drink some of my favorite drinks & tan the day away. Unfourtunatly I can't do that, well at least I only have 3-4 weeks left of school until summer, well than I'll be working at the salon for like the wholeish summer. Well at least I'll be getting my hours in, the sooner i get them done the sooner I can get my hairdressing ticket.
Isaiah & Lily come home today, which is pretty exciting. It'll be a big change having them home, I hope all goes well which I'm sure it will. Joe is sleeping like every other day other than Tuesday & Wednesday when its his days off. He told me to wake him up at 1... dun dun dun, will it really be 1:00 or will it end up being 3:00. Im sure he will get up on time this time, since we gotta get the crib together etc.
Time has been going by so quickly, it kind of scares me a bit... next thing you know i'll be moving out of my my moms place, getting a job & supporting myself. I'm really worried that I won't beable to get a good paying job here... its crossed my mind a few times that I might have to move away somewhere up north or even to Alberta to be able to make enough money fast enough to get well up and on my feet. Since the economy has gone to shit lately. Gotta take it one step at a time I suppose.
Isaiah & Lily come home today, which is pretty exciting. It'll be a big change having them home, I hope all goes well which I'm sure it will. Joe is sleeping like every other day other than Tuesday & Wednesday when its his days off. He told me to wake him up at 1... dun dun dun, will it really be 1:00 or will it end up being 3:00. Im sure he will get up on time this time, since we gotta get the crib together etc.
Time has been going by so quickly, it kind of scares me a bit... next thing you know i'll be moving out of my my moms place, getting a job & supporting myself. I'm really worried that I won't beable to get a good paying job here... its crossed my mind a few times that I might have to move away somewhere up north or even to Alberta to be able to make enough money fast enough to get well up and on my feet. Since the economy has gone to shit lately. Gotta take it one step at a time I suppose.
Times have changed, and so have we.
We will both be more happy now,
since we have eachother .
I love you.
<3
Monday, May 21, 2012
May. 21st 2012
Mondays... Everybody hates mondays, and i understand why. The weekend is sadly over and everyone is just too fucking tired for anyones bullshit on mondays. Luckily this Monday I don't have to deal with any annoying people if I don't want too, since its of course : MAY LONG FUCKING WEEKEND. I havn't done anything productive what so ever this weekend other than somewhat help Joe move, which I didn't neccesarily do much, i only 'strongly suggested' that things go a certain way, since im working on not ordering people around and telling them what to do, im trying to use my words without getting angery.. since I'm trying to change as a person, and start over things that i've been doing wtihout actually starting over somewhere new. I don't know how well its working out, I don't think anyone has even noticed that I'm trying to change.. Oh well, guess its not that important, no matter how much i think it is.
Im in desperate need to download new music, well maybe not 'new' music , just new to my ipod music :3 So at this very moment, im downloading every single song by Kid Rock & than im going to listen to every single song and wait for Joe to get up. I think he said he wanted to get up at 1 today, i highly doubt that he actually wants to get up, i think hes just saying that to make me happy, im sure when it comes down to it being 1, he will ask for another half an hour, than another half an hour, so on and so forth. lol Oh well, I'm sure I'll survive my own company again.
Its raining outside, well actually it may have stopped but its really wet looking out there... Its only 10 right now. Im debating on actually just going to go have a shower and get my shit together before Joe gets up, but I'm sure he will want to have a shower with me, so i might as well just wait.
I'm excited to see Isaiah today, well thats if Joe is okay with me seeing him again today :) I don't know what we would be doing with him today since Joe doesn't live in town and we wouldn't have enough time to bring him all the way out to Joe's moms house than all the way back. We possibly could bring him to my house again, but we will just have to see how my moms doing today. Isaiah is the cutest thing on earth. I really hope I can keep being apart of his life.
Im in desperate need to download new music, well maybe not 'new' music , just new to my ipod music :3 So at this very moment, im downloading every single song by Kid Rock & than im going to listen to every single song and wait for Joe to get up. I think he said he wanted to get up at 1 today, i highly doubt that he actually wants to get up, i think hes just saying that to make me happy, im sure when it comes down to it being 1, he will ask for another half an hour, than another half an hour, so on and so forth. lol Oh well, I'm sure I'll survive my own company again.
Its raining outside, well actually it may have stopped but its really wet looking out there... Its only 10 right now. Im debating on actually just going to go have a shower and get my shit together before Joe gets up, but I'm sure he will want to have a shower with me, so i might as well just wait.
I'm excited to see Isaiah today, well thats if Joe is okay with me seeing him again today :) I don't know what we would be doing with him today since Joe doesn't live in town and we wouldn't have enough time to bring him all the way out to Joe's moms house than all the way back. We possibly could bring him to my house again, but we will just have to see how my moms doing today. Isaiah is the cutest thing on earth. I really hope I can keep being apart of his life.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
May. 20th. 2012
Another day in my life, but its a happy day. Seems like I'm having alot of happy days lately. Which is great because over the past year there were not many of these days strolling around. Im at Joe's moms house now, he moved back home so he has a better chance of getting his son back and getting his life back on track. Im so proud of him, hes showing some true responsibility now, like a real man should. Joe is sleeping right now, he worked last night. I get to wake him up at about 2:00 and its already 11 now so I don't have to wait that much longer :) He made me and his mom French Toast this morning before he went to bed. I love how much happier we are together this time than last time, we didn't know eachother that well when we dated the first time. The main reason for that is because we didn't know eachother that well, which is completly understandable, we moved to quickly. But even after a year of not being together I still had super duper BIG feeling towards him. Im curious to know why he is so surprised that I would still be with him even though he has a son. That doesn't change a thing, i love him just the same! :) I hope he believes me when I tell him it doesn't bother me at all :3 I love his son to death already, I really hope that Joe doesn't leave me, he has given me so much happiness and I am eternally greatful for that, I really needed to be happy. It was almost as if I was and the bridge of slipping into insanity before me and him got back together.
Honestly I can say that I do miss Tyler, but its not the type of miss that I want to be with Tyler. Its the miss of having him around me all the time, because I got used to it. Its deffiently for the best that me and him are not together anymore. He brought the worst out of me, i became a very angery and iritable person being around him, to the point where just having him look at me made me angery. But when Joe looks at me, it makes my stomach have the weirdest feeling, its a good feeling though, almost like butterflies but way better! <3 I can see Joe & I having a future together.
Looks to me that I'll be graduating by the end of next January which will be great but also quite scary. Time has flied by but I know i'll be okay, I won't be alone. Even though i don't have very many friends anymore.. well friends that actually matter to me .. :/ but since things are looking up I'm sure that will change quite soon. For the time being I have my mom and Joe, and thats good enough for me :)
Im probably going down to Burnaby in the begining of summer to visit my dad. I hope it works out, because I'm willing to give him another chance. I wan't him to be in my life again, for the millionth time, i hope he is actually going to put an effort into it this time, im done getting hurt. But i'll have Joe with him to be there for me, when times get tough. Well thats if hes wanting to do so.
Honestly I can say that I do miss Tyler, but its not the type of miss that I want to be with Tyler. Its the miss of having him around me all the time, because I got used to it. Its deffiently for the best that me and him are not together anymore. He brought the worst out of me, i became a very angery and iritable person being around him, to the point where just having him look at me made me angery. But when Joe looks at me, it makes my stomach have the weirdest feeling, its a good feeling though, almost like butterflies but way better! <3 I can see Joe & I having a future together.
Looks to me that I'll be graduating by the end of next January which will be great but also quite scary. Time has flied by but I know i'll be okay, I won't be alone. Even though i don't have very many friends anymore.. well friends that actually matter to me .. :/ but since things are looking up I'm sure that will change quite soon. For the time being I have my mom and Joe, and thats good enough for me :)
Im probably going down to Burnaby in the begining of summer to visit my dad. I hope it works out, because I'm willing to give him another chance. I wan't him to be in my life again, for the millionth time, i hope he is actually going to put an effort into it this time, im done getting hurt. But i'll have Joe with him to be there for me, when times get tough. Well thats if hes wanting to do so.
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