Another day in my life, but its a happy day. Seems like I'm having alot of happy days lately. Which is great because over the past year there were not many of these days strolling around. Im at Joe's moms house now, he moved back home so he has a better chance of getting his son back and getting his life back on track. Im so proud of him, hes showing some true responsibility now, like a real man should. Joe is sleeping right now, he worked last night. I get to wake him up at about 2:00 and its already 11 now so I don't have to wait that much longer :) He made me and his mom French Toast this morning before he went to bed. I love how much happier we are together this time than last time, we didn't know eachother that well when we dated the first time. The main reason for that is because we didn't know eachother that well, which is completly understandable, we moved to quickly. But even after a year of not being together I still had super duper BIG feeling towards him. Im curious to know why he is so surprised that I would still be with him even though he has a son. That doesn't change a thing, i love him just the same! :) I hope he believes me when I tell him it doesn't bother me at all :3 I love his son to death already, I really hope that Joe doesn't leave me, he has given me so much happiness and I am eternally greatful for that, I really needed to be happy. It was almost as if I was and the bridge of slipping into insanity before me and him got back together.
Honestly I can say that I do miss Tyler, but its not the type of miss that I want to be with Tyler. Its the miss of having him around me all the time, because I got used to it. Its deffiently for the best that me and him are not together anymore. He brought the worst out of me, i became a very angery and iritable person being around him, to the point where just having him look at me made me angery. But when Joe looks at me, it makes my stomach have the weirdest feeling, its a good feeling though, almost like butterflies but way better! <3 I can see Joe & I having a future together.
Looks to me that I'll be graduating by the end of next January which will be great but also quite scary. Time has flied by but I know i'll be okay, I won't be alone. Even though i don't have very many friends anymore.. well friends that actually matter to me .. :/ but since things are looking up I'm sure that will change quite soon. For the time being I have my mom and Joe, and thats good enough for me :)
Im probably going down to Burnaby in the begining of summer to visit my dad. I hope it works out, because I'm willing to give him another chance. I wan't him to be in my life again, for the millionth time, i hope he is actually going to put an effort into it this time, im done getting hurt. But i'll have Joe with him to be there for me, when times get tough. Well thats if hes wanting to do so.
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