January. 19th. 2011

Omg , i know i havnt wrote in my blog in a long long time . Iv been going through A ALOT lately .. Il tell you in a short story if i can .

Well iv already said that i was pregnant and that i was going to get an abortion . Well seems like i didn't have to , I miscarried , but that's not the ending result . I ended up having a tubal pregnancy . Meaning that the baby was growing in my fallopian tube .. Which is painful as fuck . Anyways , it died there which is good , meaning that it stopped growing which if i didn't it would have been more painful. Sooo i its Wednesday today, sooo Monday i went to the hospital again cause i was in pain and i was having heat flashes , i had a lot of “ personal “ tests done and found out that i needed surgery , well i had a choice , Either the DNC and a leperoskapy ( or however you spell it) Or a chemo shot that they give cancer patients ( a very low dose) that would clean out whatever was in there  . Either way i would have to stay in the hospital a couple of nights anyways . So i chose the DNC and L thing .

So i had that done last night , well technically at 430 in the afternoon and i woke up-ish from the narcotics at like 9ish , I got 3 cut hole thingers on my stomach now that will probably leave scars . But they did find the dead fetes in my right tube. Its very painful and but i feel much better today, thought id write all that , i know i spelt a lot of things wrong .. but i don't know all the scientific words i just know what they mean , lol.

But im not going to take picture today and post it , cause well i look and kinda feel like shit , so i prefer not to just yet .

This is a picture of how i did my hair last week .. just random ..

Anyways , Joe is going to be coming soon ! im so excited, i love him ( : i really do.

I wonder when the last time i blogged i guess il find out when i post this one , OOOo and iv missed about 2 weeks of school , and i have exams next week , i think im going to go to my Monday math exam. Math is kind of easy for me , and iv got a high grade in that class anyways , but science im hoping i can get an extension on it , so i don't fail the course ..

Well i might blog more often i hope , i need to write a lot more, keeps my mind and stuff on track . Anyways its like 9 at night , i dont know if im going to bed soon or not , who knows iv slept alot the past couple days .