December.27th.2010

Well yesterday i went to go shopping.. but I'm going to save my money .. cause well I'm going to need the money later on anyways . I also went to TJ’s place yesterday for his family dinner. I got along with everyone . It was really fun actually, joked around, played WII, ate turkey dinner. I told TJ.. and he doesn’t to have it. But its still my decision right. But he also asked me out after i told him, so i am not dating him. (: that’s and up-side to things. I spent the night at his place too (:, My stomach was bothering me a bit last night too . Now smoking is making me feel sick.. so i might as well quit , right?

Ryan is getting on my nerves… STILL he keeps on asking me questions.. like he’d be like “how are you” id reply “tired” and he would ask “ why so tired” and id be ‘d like “idk” and he’d ASK “ how do you not know” LIKE WTF. UGH! I got to much on my mind and I’m always tired, but just because i told him what is happening to me , he has to get into my business and want to talk about it , but its not his subject to talk about. Its a very sensitive subject for me..

Anyways, TJ got my this HUGE stuffed monkey for Christmas its soooooo CUTEEE . (= i love it. I hope TJ has changed… i really do . I want to be able to trust him. He says he loves me.. but I'm not ready to say it back just yet.