Travis officially is upset with me.. Just cause im dating TJ . What the fuck am i supposed to do in this situation. Travis isn’t here to help me, he’s going to college. All i know that i need to do is just worry and care about myself more than anyone else right now, i need to decide on what i am wanting to do. I woke up in the middle of the night last night, i had a dream that i made the wrong decision and than i was crying when i woke up . So i think that could possibly be a sign?. I’m not sure yet.. Still have to go to the doctor before i get way to stressed out about it .
Travis is doing everything that he knows that would make me upset. So i blocked him from skype, MSN , and i removed him from my Face-book, Until he smartens up and accepts the fact that i’m with TJ . When he was with Kate i got over it. He didn’t even ask me out !! TJ did. I waited 3 months for Travis, and he thinks i’ll leave TJ for him just cause he said “ He was going to ask me out on Saturday” I dont think so, he such a little liar. But whatever, he can do what he pleases. I got way to much to worry about at the moment .
I’m not sure on what im wanting to do honestly . There is pros and cons to both, but im sure im not going to go through that stress again of just leaving… it hurt. And i got really depressed on the decision i made.
I miss my friends from school , i shall see them all again in about a week, when school starts up again.
I got to quit smoking.. i kind of am though. It makes me feel sick when i smoke now, and i know why of course. But its a good thing that too cause than it will prevent me from smoking .
PS. i look like shit today .
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